Publicity

If I learned one thing about giving up Facebook for 2 months, its that it doesn't matter. Facebook drama is right below Jr. High drama.

i used to worry about having witty facebook status', a cool profile picture, how many friends i have, how many people post on my wall. i used to be really really wrapped up in that kind of stuff. and thats not how it should be.

facebook should just be a site to stay connected with people you can't see in person at the moment, or at all. not divulge your entire life.

For instance, I used to post status' that pretty much make people ask me whats wrong. i used to just want the attention. things such as "Ugh i cant believe this is happening to me!" or "..." or "Just wants to go cry".

things of that nature.

and you know what, all i was doing was trying to get attention from people. i wanted to see who cared about me. and in all actuality, the people who really cared about me didnt look at my facebook page. they looked at me, at my life, at my actions. they looked at me, not my facebook.

and i guess this is more of a rant than a blog post, but if youve ever seen my old blog, there are many-a-posts just like this one.

People do not need to know what is going on in your life at every moment. That is what Jesus if for. Pray to God about your problems, and struggles, and about your life if you are so worried. dont share it with the internet hoping to get some sort of outcome.

that is one huge thing i had to deal with. i always went to people on the internet before i went to Christ. and even if i did go to him, it was only because i felt obligated to. and with that attitude i never really felt like he was going to do anything.

why would God, the creator and master of the universe, care about me and my problems?

why?

because He loves us!

and we have to learn to truly accept that.

and that right there is something that i still struggle with.

and as far as venting, or posting your life on the internet, that is why they invented blogs. if you really want to share your feelings, put it out in public, but dont necessarily shove it on the facebook world.

there is a difference between honestly asking for help, or advice, or reconciliation, and just seeking attention.

and i was just seeking attention until i gave facebook up, and effectively gave up all social internet contact. and it, no matter how lame it sounds, changed my life. and changed it for the better.

instead, i go back to the days of old. where i posted my life, as according to xanga, for all the internet to see. but i only gave it out to a few close friends. and that is what i am doing now.

only close friends will read this, and i am alright with that, because that is who is supposed to be reading this in the first place.

Until next time...