A Heart That I Do Not Possess

One thing that I keep realizing as this year was drawing to a close was my heart.
The physical human heart has nothing to do with what we describe it as being.
It cannot be simply broken, or stolen, or given to someone.
It stays locked within our chests, steadily beating, pumping our blood through our bodies.

And that is where the Heart that we talk about theoretically starts to come into existence.
Since the heart keeps us alive, it is at the center of us, and it is essential to our being, is where it gains it's metaphorical importance.

So what now?

Well, back to my original thought, I have been thinking about my heart.
And where my heart is and has been through the year of college I just experienced.

And after talking with many people, and to God, about the importance of keeping the mission statement of Campus Crusade, I have realized where my heart isn't.

I have realized the heart that I do not possess.

And that heart, is the heart of evangelism.

Every single Christian in existence is called to evangelize. we are all called to reach out to our peers, to our family, even to complete strangers, to complete the Great Commission.

Matthew 28:18-20
Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." (emphasis added)

I was trying to wrap my mind around that.
I always used the excuse, "Well some people are called to reach out to the masses, and some people are called to reach out to close friends"

and that is simply a lie.

We are all called to reach out to everybody we come into contact with.


Now imagine yourself at a refugee camp. there are people everywhere, in crowded spaces.
you see their sunken faces, exposed ribs, and shabby rags for clothing.
they say nothing, but when you look in their eyes, you see the pain.
you see them practically screaming for help
for saving.

this is how Jesus sees the un-believing.
not as some swanky actor that doesn't "need" God.
but as a broken, suffering, and devastated refugee. A refugee of sin.

I dont know about you, but if i saw someone I know looking like a homeless man from Sudan, I would do something about it.

and this is how we should view evangelism. not as something we do to lead someone to God, so they can better their already good lives.
but instead to see God save them from a life of suffering and death.

And to me, this means I have to have a heart for evangelism.
No.
I NEED to have a heart OF evangelism.

If our heart is our core, our life-source, the center of us, then if we have a heart to reach out amongst our fellow humans, it should be the only thing we strive to do.
My heart needs to be pumping with fervor to bring the word of God to every tribe, tongue, and nation. If that is applied to someone on the street, someone in my classes, my neighbor, my floor, my hall, my school, my nation, or the whole world.
I need to be constantly desiring to share Jesus with everyone.

and that means I have to leave my comfort zone.
not it's not, If i have to leave my comfort zone, so be it.

I will be leaving it
we all are, because we are not on this earth to be comfortable.
we are here to spread Jesus, and glorify Him


So if this means I leave the "Bowen Hall Family" then I will.
If God calls me to go to another dorm, I will do it.
If he even calls me to leave WSC, I will do it.

Reluctantly, but I will.

It's Time

Ever since ive been going to Wayne State College, ive been attending Concord E-Free Church.

and ive never went to a different church.

and i saw nothing wrong with that.

i got everything i wanted from attending Concord. Worship, Conviction, Instruction, and Comfort in faith.

so i decided to visit Journey Christian Church a couple sundays ago.

and this is what i gathered.

The message was about something along the lines of God's glory. the thing is, it was so topical, it made me sick.

it was almost as if the pastor was simply talking about God. just a message that was telling you things about God. and how cool he is, and things he can do.

but it felt like it never went further than that.

it spoke of His holiness, and what that meant, but never mentioned how that applies to how we should follow him.

and this is nothing against Journey Church.. but it just felt like i was being fed milk.

milk for a new believer. simple truths and ideals that we need to know and understand before we are able to move on to solid food.

milk makes us feel safe, it is comforting. it doesnt upset, it doesnt change our lives, it just keeps us stable.

but solid food builds up our bodies, it gives us nutrients that milk cannot provide.

yeah we may eat something wrong, so our body just processes it like junk food, and we feel the repercussions from that. but then we know not to each such foods again.

but if we were to stay on milk, we would never feel those wrongs. we would always be in our safe little bubble.

but we would also never grow.

It's time to ween ourselves off the milk, and move on to some Man Steak.