A Heart That I Do Not Possess

One thing that I keep realizing as this year was drawing to a close was my heart.
The physical human heart has nothing to do with what we describe it as being.
It cannot be simply broken, or stolen, or given to someone.
It stays locked within our chests, steadily beating, pumping our blood through our bodies.

And that is where the Heart that we talk about theoretically starts to come into existence.
Since the heart keeps us alive, it is at the center of us, and it is essential to our being, is where it gains it's metaphorical importance.

So what now?

Well, back to my original thought, I have been thinking about my heart.
And where my heart is and has been through the year of college I just experienced.

And after talking with many people, and to God, about the importance of keeping the mission statement of Campus Crusade, I have realized where my heart isn't.

I have realized the heart that I do not possess.

And that heart, is the heart of evangelism.

Every single Christian in existence is called to evangelize. we are all called to reach out to our peers, to our family, even to complete strangers, to complete the Great Commission.

Matthew 28:18-20
Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." (emphasis added)

I was trying to wrap my mind around that.
I always used the excuse, "Well some people are called to reach out to the masses, and some people are called to reach out to close friends"

and that is simply a lie.

We are all called to reach out to everybody we come into contact with.


Now imagine yourself at a refugee camp. there are people everywhere, in crowded spaces.
you see their sunken faces, exposed ribs, and shabby rags for clothing.
they say nothing, but when you look in their eyes, you see the pain.
you see them practically screaming for help
for saving.

this is how Jesus sees the un-believing.
not as some swanky actor that doesn't "need" God.
but as a broken, suffering, and devastated refugee. A refugee of sin.

I dont know about you, but if i saw someone I know looking like a homeless man from Sudan, I would do something about it.

and this is how we should view evangelism. not as something we do to lead someone to God, so they can better their already good lives.
but instead to see God save them from a life of suffering and death.

And to me, this means I have to have a heart for evangelism.
No.
I NEED to have a heart OF evangelism.

If our heart is our core, our life-source, the center of us, then if we have a heart to reach out amongst our fellow humans, it should be the only thing we strive to do.
My heart needs to be pumping with fervor to bring the word of God to every tribe, tongue, and nation. If that is applied to someone on the street, someone in my classes, my neighbor, my floor, my hall, my school, my nation, or the whole world.
I need to be constantly desiring to share Jesus with everyone.

and that means I have to leave my comfort zone.
not it's not, If i have to leave my comfort zone, so be it.

I will be leaving it
we all are, because we are not on this earth to be comfortable.
we are here to spread Jesus, and glorify Him


So if this means I leave the "Bowen Hall Family" then I will.
If God calls me to go to another dorm, I will do it.
If he even calls me to leave WSC, I will do it.

Reluctantly, but I will.